Short And Sweet

I am leaving for Portland to visit my daughter, husband and two grandson’s in a half hour. So there isn’t time for a long, thoughtful blog. My older daughter may drive down to join us from Bend, but maybe not as she’s been on a trip herself the past five days. What’s up for me is again being pulled in two directions. Maybe I feel this as strongly as I do because I’m a Pisces. Or just because I’m me. I am excited to be seeing them all, sad that it will be my last visit to do so because they are moving to Bend, where my older daughter lives; but I also feel unhappy leaving my partner. I have waited for him for so many years–a man who would be willing to share ideas and feelings and sexuality (even at our age, yes!), commit to a life-long relationship and to work on whatever we had to, however we had to, so that would be so, someone whose company I thoroughly enjoy–that leaving is always difficult. Seems ridiculous since it’s only for four days, but so it is. So many gifts: the two girls and the grandchildren, and this caring, supportive partner. That’s what I’ll focus on as I pull out of the driveway, and commence the four-hour trek to Oregon. At least from now on I can drive to SeaTac and fly to visit the girls at the same time. And I can read on the way! Another gift.