Taking A Break

Today is a national holiday, but here I sit, writing my blog because it’s Monday and that’s the day I always write my blog. As I put up water for tea, I did give a passing thought to skipping the blog today – ‘passing’ is the operative word. The notion that ‘I can’t skip a Monday’ took over. I decided to write the blog right away, so the rest of the day would be mine! And as I sit here typing, I can’t help but wonder why I can’t take a break. This blog is on my web site. I’m the one who decided to blog every Monday when I first set up the site. I don’t have a boss looking over my shoulder. Obviously, I don’t need one. I hold myself to task with more vigor than any of my bosses ever has. Who is going to complain or mind if I skip an occasional Monday? Why would I feel guilty for ‘slacking off’? Why would I even use those words? Whose standards am I upholding? As is my want, I will give this some thought the next few days. But I also wonder if any of you have a similar issue and have trouble just laying back and doing not much of anything for an hour, an afternoon, a day. I’d love to hear from you, since that may help me let go of my own issue in this regard. I do believe that I will give myself permission to skip an occasional Monday, just as I have decided to only produce one video blog a month instead of two. They say any change gets easier over time. Maybe someday I’ll be able to ‘take a break’ with joy and a song in my heart…..